Today I did one of my favorite things, I went for a long bike road along the coast and packed a sweet hummus sandwhich and ate it while sitting and looking out over the water.
I can't think of a better way to spend my afternoon:) I struggled once I came back though, when I'm not busy, alone, and have free time I struggle the most. But I fought the urges to binge, but my stomach felt pretty bad most of the day after last night's binge, from all the foods I ate. My body is basically telling me in its own way, it can't handle my eating disorder anymore. I realize now is the time to change, as I'm only 21 and have so much ahead of me. Now is not the time to let ED ruin my body or my life. So after my sweet bike ride, I read a bit a book Brothers by Da Chen, its really interesting, and enjoyable. Then tonight I made pancakes w/ some friends for dinner, too much sugar though so I feel a little sick still. I super senesitive since my Ed to Caffeine, and proccessed foods, probably since i restricted / ate super healthy all through high school, until my binging in college started. So my body is basically not too happy this week. Hopefully tommorow it will feel better:)
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Proud of you, dear girl! :-) I can't think of a better afternoon, either. I hope today was a great day!
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